Saturday, 13 February 2010

  • so it finally happened.

    we bickered, it's been awhile.
    we got some fast food and headed to the pool hall.
    as soon as we got there a friend started a conversation with
    you and you walked away, only a pool cue in hand.
    me? i had your food and mine, a drink, a cigarette, and my purse.
    sure i could carry all these items myself, but it'd be nice to hear,
    "hey babe, need a hand?" but no, i was promptly ignored until i brought it up.

    then there was christina and her nasty self.
    how would you like it if i made jerking off motions,
    or licked my thumb and ran it down my body to another
    girl's boyfriend? i highly doubt you'd be to supportive..
    but hey, she's your friend, and it's only ever "a joke."

    i don't find it very funny.

    but now you're out with random people,
    and i'm home alone.

    god i hate nights like these.

    it's all my fault though, i'll never ask you to stay home with
    me, to have "us" time.

    who knows when you'll be home, we both know i won't sleep
    until then. so, i guess i'll see you in a few hours...

Friday, 12 February 2010

  • i'm obsessed,

    with her.
    with everything that happened.
    i can't it go, i can't get it out of my head.
    it destroyed me, it still does.

    you went out for a bit.
    how long will you be gone?
    it's sad to say this, but, i hate
    when you go out anywhere by yourself.
    i don't trust you. isn't that terrible?
    i'm SO afraid that you're talking to her still.
    that you're going to go meet up with her, or run into her,
    or something like that.

    what if you fall for her again?
    it's always a possibility..
    i don't know.

    don't get me wrong, i'm happy, i really am.
    i just, can't let go of the past, of all the pain...

    how can/ should i?

Thursday, 11 February 2010

Wednesday, 10 February 2010

  • here we go.

    i'm doing this anonymously, i just need the release of thoughts ya know?

    where to start?
    she was in my dreams the other night,
    you found it odd, i couldn't help it.
    if i stress to badly about her,
    she appears in my dreams, my every thought.

    how much do you think about her?

    don't get me wrong, i still hate her,
    with the strongest passion, it's just,

    i can't let go..

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  • I'm 18 years old. I'm taken, in love. I'm a cigarette junkie. I love body modifications.

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